Back to the writing desk

I’m back…finally, although I’m not expecting many people to truly have noticed I’ve been away. If you are one of the few that’s spent some time actually reading my various blog posts then you’d probably realised I suddenly went very quiet on the blogging and social media front. Apologies for that didn’t mean to disappoint anyone with my sudden writing break but sometimes things just don’t always go to plan.

As this is my first blog post in what feels like forever I figured I’d signal my return to writing by explaining why I stopped, not the most interesting of subjects maybe but seems as good a place as any to start. I’ll try keep this post short as it probably just sounds like I’m having a bit of a whinge or fishing for sympathy.

The main reason for my unexplained absence is actually fairly simple; I developed a gaping void of creativity and experienced a wave of frustration causing a dearth of love for the art of writing, or put more simply I had writers block! All of a sudden I found I just didn’t feel like doing it, which sounds pretty lazy although in truth it wasn’t laziness stopping me, I just couldn’t make myself do it. The reasons why are many, varied and complex although two of those reasons stand out:

  • Frustration
  • Not letting writing become a chore

Both these reasons are closely intertwined but I’ll explain them separately in the hope it makes for easier, more structured reading.

Firstly frustration, I found when I sat down to write I was getting annoyed at myself because I didn’t feel like my writing had any true direction and I didn’t really have a proper plan of what I wanted to write. That was not something that had ever bothered me before but I think after wanting to get it stemmed from the fact that I’d wanted to get some writing out into the world for so long that when I finally did I started to worry that I wouldn’t be able to follow it up with anything worth reading. I’d never really doubted myself before and in honesty I still don’t, I am very much of the opinion that people will read and like my work or they won’t so this small nagging piece of self doubt caused me a fair amount of frustration.

The second reason is a promise I made to myself when I started my blog. I write because on the whole I enjoy it and I find it relaxing so I said from the start that I never wanted it to feel like a chore. I want to sit down and write because I want to not because I have to. I don’t earn any money from my blogging so I don’t feel I need to treat it like a job, quite the opposite it’s a hobby and at the moment I intend for it to stay that way.

So there you have it the two main reasons I’ve not been writing for a while, I’m sure every writer experiences these same feelings at times and doubtless many would say that stopping writing is actually avoiding the issue but I certainly feel better about writing again now I’ve taken a break and I’m happy to say I’ve returned to the keyboard and I’m working on a few different posts which I’ll hopefully be able to share with people soon.